A New Start

First of all i want to apologise for the lack of posts lately. The past couple weeks have been 1) VERY emotional and challenging and 2) exhausting. 

Three weeks ago, i started college. I'm not going to lie and say the first day was the best day of my life and that i was so happy and felt perfectly okay because, honestly, i didn't at all. I know it wasn't just me who felt terrified and didn't want to be there, i know that but everyone had their own reason to feel how they felt that day. Having a number of panic attacks and crying so much, my make up running all down my face and clinging on to my dad, wasn't exactly how i wanted to start college. But after a few days, i started to be more myself and open and eventually made some friends. Which i am very pleased about! But i think the main thing i have learnt is to just face your fears. Because if you do it over and over and over again, it will be less scary. Yeah of course you will still have that fear there at the back of your mind, but it can't do anything to harm you unless you let it. And that is a big thing i have learnt this past couple weeks. My anxiety and panic attacks are still always going to be with me, but i just try and not let it take over me and stop me doing things i want to do. They can't take over me or harm me as long as i don't let it.
College now is amazing. It is 100% better than school and a lot better than i thought it would be. I'm still not used to getting up at half 6 in the morning but i will do soon (i hope).

On the other hand and no surprise here...I have, yes you have guessed it...dyed my hair again. Opppsie! My habit and addiction for dying my hair is getting out of hand a bit now. I am very surprised my hair isn't dead or falling out yet. But i kinda got a little bit bored of just being purple so i just had to put blue init. For anyone who wants to know what colours i used. For the purple i used LIVE XXL and for the blue i used Manic Panic. (WARNING- the manic panic hair dye is very runny and liquidity) 

The Fault In Our Stars

I am 100% in love with this book. It honestly has to be the best book i have ever read. It is so addictive. If you are a teenage girl or boy around the age of maybe 14+ you have to read it. But last night, i went to see the film with a friend of mine. Me going to a cinema?? i know, shocking. I will admit i did cry...a lot but some parts of me were kind of disappointed. I don't know if it's just me being fussy but not everything was 100% perfect. I know people say they don't always get it right and books are better but just this once, i have to agree the book was better. For people who haven't read the book and have no idea what its about and want to go see the movie. All i'm going to say to you is good luck trying not to cry.  

Making A New Friend

As i actually had more energy today than i normally do, we decided once again to go to a National Trust place. I can't remember what this place was actually called as my memory is poop but all i know is there are lots and lots of different types of birds just walking around. Yes there was actually a peacock wondering around the gardens, well more than one, about four. I don't think i have ever been so close to a peacock before. They are so gorgeous.

 Apparently i looked like a chinese school girl today...so kawaii.

 This is my favourite picture i got of a peacock today. So blue!!!

 i found a cute little mirror in one of the gardens.

Good Old Brizzzzle

After my therapy appointment, me, mum and dad went to clifton down's so i could try and take some photos of the bridge. But unfortunately you could see the bridge very well from where was but on the better side we came across this very nice little field near where the car was. That's the best thing about Bristol. I have been there a hell of a lot, nearly every single day just about and i was born there yet i always find new places i haven't been before or haven't been for years. Don't really know why, but everytime i go to Bristol it always feels like home to me. 

I wanted to go for a casually kind of look today. But something what didn't look too sloppy. So i went for my all time favourite jeans and one of my favourite jumpers. If you have read my blog before you will recognise this jumper and you will know how much i love it. 

Jeans // Topshop

Jumper // Newlook mens 

Uggs // Uggs

Bag // Vans
Sunglasses // ???