A New Start

First of all i want to apologise for the lack of posts lately. The past couple weeks have been 1) VERY emotional and challenging and 2) exhausting. 

Three weeks ago, i started college. I'm not going to lie and say the first day was the best day of my life and that i was so happy and felt perfectly okay because, honestly, i didn't at all. I know it wasn't just me who felt terrified and didn't want to be there, i know that but everyone had their own reason to feel how they felt that day. Having a number of panic attacks and crying so much, my make up running all down my face and clinging on to my dad, wasn't exactly how i wanted to start college. But after a few days, i started to be more myself and open and eventually made some friends. Which i am very pleased about! But i think the main thing i have learnt is to just face your fears. Because if you do it over and over and over again, it will be less scary. Yeah of course you will still have that fear there at the back of your mind, but it can't do anything to harm you unless you let it. And that is a big thing i have learnt this past couple weeks. My anxiety and panic attacks are still always going to be with me, but i just try and not let it take over me and stop me doing things i want to do. They can't take over me or harm me as long as i don't let it.
College now is amazing. It is 100% better than school and a lot better than i thought it would be. I'm still not used to getting up at half 6 in the morning but i will do soon (i hope).

On the other hand and no surprise here...I have, yes you have guessed it...dyed my hair again. Opppsie! My habit and addiction for dying my hair is getting out of hand a bit now. I am very surprised my hair isn't dead or falling out yet. But i kinda got a little bit bored of just being purple so i just had to put blue init. For anyone who wants to know what colours i used. For the purple i used LIVE XXL and for the blue i used Manic Panic. (WARNING- the manic panic hair dye is very runny and liquidity)